Saturday, July 4, 2009

testing...testing...1,2,3...

Friday, July 3, 2009


Phase one inspiration board...

I'm not sure where it will take me from here...

I'm excited to find out.

My fingers are covered in glue,

My story is floating just below the surface...

Got this idea in my head that I would love to have a little travel trailer, like the 50's style ones, as a traveling studio/miniature photo studio...

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Sunday, June 28, 2009

I just got a reminder of why it's never a good idea to feel sorry for yourself... so I'm gonna stop right now.

I also went to google and typed in "why it's never a good idea to feel sorry for yourself,"
and was immediately reminded never to tell a depressed person to stop feeling sorry for themself... (is it different if you're the depressed person???) and then that perhaps looking at people with birth defects, amputees and conjoined twins might make me feel better about myself which in my opinion is a little sick and twisted. I think that I'll just choose to be grateful for the fact that I have a great kid, a pretty mellow life these days and that I'm embarking on an exciting opportunity. Just because the symptoms Damian has are likely seizures they are not new symptoms and maybe we're getting closer to an answer on how to get the problem fixed. Yes, I have a lot to be grateful for.
Went to the Dr. on Friday, Damian, my 14 year old son, may be having seizures. I start a new job on Monday - Tomorrow, stress is mounting. I will make it through this... Why does my kid have to suffer through Tourettes syndrome, ADHD, a sleep disorder and now possibly Epilepsy as well??? He's such a great kid and these challenges, well.... it's just not fair. I feel like shouting it from the rooftops, it's not fair!!! But who is listening? Why us? I feel sorry for myself for the first time in I don't know how long. I could make long lists of reasons I could feel sorry for myself, but no - I always try to find the bright side of it, use it to channel into art, into making myself a stronger person but why the hell should my kid have to be drug through all this??? Where is the bright side... ???